These posts are in no particular order right now, but future ones will be!

I Survived Finals! 12/17/24

I made it out! This blog although personal, is not my diary so I won't go too in depth on anything, but I did really begin burning out towards the end. I also have some personal stuff going on in my life and I'm feeling pretty melancholy as I get time to think about it. My friend very recently did a list of things they want to do over break on [their website](https://megaliths.neocities.org/lifeupdates) and I thought that might be fun so Megaliths I'm plagiarizing your idea hi hi!!

Finals season greetings! (Many emotions) 12/6/24

"It's now finals season and holiday concert season at my college, which brings up a lot of emotions for me. On one hand I'm ""yippee holiday season!"" And another I'm feeling very depressed I'll have to leave my friends for so many weeks. I've posted before about how breaks tend to put me into depressive funks and winter break is no different. I love my family don't get me wrong, but I dread the stark change and lack of outside time. My campus is pretty safe so I spend a lot of time walking around out and about while my home town is not so so I kind of get cooped up at home. On another note, it's finals and of course all the work I have due is adding another layer of stress into my emotional stratigraphy (is that a cool geology metaphor guys lmk). Although I like to think I'm not a perfectionist, I am a straight A student and feel guilty for anything below a 87% so maybe I am. I'm going to do my best at finals although I worry I am pushing my studying back close to the exams because of concerts. I've done so well in these past semesters of college that I'm a little afraid to get B's in my classes even though in the grand scheme of things a B is good, and a pass with flying colors!! I need to remind myself that I'm taking harder classes now and it's ok to not be perfect. And I don't have to do everything to please my parents I'm my own adult person o7! Concert season is also stressful for me as I'm missing crucial finals studying time to travel and play holiday music. I have a full day tomorrow from 8am straight through to 2am the next day of just concert stuff and then even more the rest of the weekend. I can handle a long day it's just the worst timing for me (and everyone else), so everyone is very on edge as well about losing 3 full days of finals prep. I feel like I might be coming down with a cold but I'm fighting it. I'm hoping it doesn't get worse but with how stressed I am and how cold it is my immune system is probably at a disadvantage. All of this kinda just culminates to ""I'm stressed and I'm lonely"". December can be like that. I can feel a little guilty when my friends see me so stressed because I become kinda needy and more pessimistic. When I get depressed I don't want to be left alone to spiral so I'll become rather desperate for a hang out. How is everyone else doing? Get any nice Christmas cards if you celebrate? Get any snow? (We did!). I'm thinking about making an email for this blog if people want to reach out but I'm scared of spam etc. lmk on my guestbook for now!

Silly Haikus

I would do a lot
Of things for a sticker, man
No, I'm serious.

They trapped me inside
This haiku and now I must
Abide phrasing rules

I fell asleep near
The air vent and woke up a
Different being

Help! I've fallen in
A crack/hole/crevasse near you!
I need a hand please!

I ate a chicken
Breast in blanch and it was pink
Am I going to die?

Dikes are lesbians
And rock forms. Such wonders with
Homophones hooray!

Recently I've been seeing lots of haiku bot on Tumblr, and it really inspired me to write some Haikus! I love how odd and not super symbolic they are- nothing against the true artistic poems though. I like the idea that I can just create some things and they don't have to be serious, or good. I can just enjoy the creating!

Never Outgrowing a Show

I'm admittedly a pretty big fan of Hasbro's children's show, My Little Pony Friendship is Magic. I've liked this show for a while now, beginning back when I was it's target audience. I enjoyed watching it throughout elementary school to about the beginning of middle school (I liked it enough to even visit PonyCon, which was awesome btw). I then dropped it, and I cannot tell if it was because I simply didn't like it much anymore, or I was going through a typical middle schooler phase where you need to drop childish things and fit in. I tried to hide anything My Little Pony I had for the next couple of years as I got really into Pokemon at the time. In high school, MLP FiM finally ended. With much of the bronies leaving online spaces, I ran into lots of fans my age making MLP fanart on social media. This really got me back into the show. As a kid I was a lurker online as I wasn't allowed social media (which I am thankful for! the age restriction is there for a reason) I only would browse Equestria Daily and doodle ponysonas in my notebook at recess. I have nothing against bronies, they were just always much older. But now, with many people my age I felt more comfortable than ever to be active in the community and with fans IRL! There used to be (and might still be) some very hateful MLP brony groups while the show was still running that were very racist and homophobic. As a lesbian the fact that the post show fandom was such a open and welcoming LGBTQ+ space was really important for me, and certainly a drawing factor. All of my close IRL friends definitely know about my love for this show and its fandom, and are very loving and supportive. I'm so happy that I can show my friends drawings of my ponysona without the fear of being made fun of. I'm not super vocal about liking the show in public, but I do have MLP keychains on my backpack that I bring around. The laptop I'm writing this on has an Applejack sticker on it! So me liking the show is not exactly a secret. I even became friends a MLP fan in my class who liked my sticker :). So yeah, I like the colorful horse show :) the people I've met are also great!

Some Love for Physical Notes and Letters

Maybe a universal topic?

Nearly every note I've ever received is special to me. Whether a true note or not I tend to hold on to most paper products people give me in some way or another. Every sticky note, every drawing, every card, and especially anything addressed to me personally. Receipts, notes, and pictures from people are taped into my diary from various days and I look back on them and smile :). An unorthodox note example is that once my roommate wrote a note to me on masking tape! And although it was an odd thing to leave a note on I really appreciated it. That was a fun day! I swear I'm not some paper hoarder! These notes tend to be nice and compact. I just love the small physical representations that people care for me. One of my favorite feelings ever is receiving a letter in the mail. My friend and I have been doing some back and forth snail mail and I love it beyond words. Although I am quickly amassing a desk drawer full of lovely letters! Rarely when I write to people do they actually snail mail back, as I guess texting is definitively cheaper these days. With stamps jumping in cost I definitely understand, but it just doesn't feel the same. Physical letters and notes are just so personalized! I love mailing my friends letters with stickers, drawings, friendship bracelets, and sometimes even a good teabag!